I'm Out To Be Blamed

Down To The Last Resort

2012-02-26T20:56:00.002+08:00

Well, have been sending out so many resumes, but none has yet to reply. So finally I have to apply for jobs that I really really do not want to do. What more can I say? This is life, perhaps after all my life has already been predestined since the day I was born. Nothing much I can do about it. Maybe I shall shed my tears for the very last time tonight, & in the future, I shall never & will never shed a single drop of tears for anything or anyone. If I'm that lucky, maybe the gods might grant me a painless death, but I doubt they would be that kind to me. End everything so peacefully.

Pondering for Jobs

2012-01-18T16:26:00.002+08:00

Waking up in the late morning, have lunch, online, jogging, have dinner, sleep, & the cycle keeps going back. Well, I have had this kind of life for I guess close to 6 months since my ORD. It's not that I don't wanna get a job, but all those job I applied for keep asking me to wait for 2 weeks. So 2 weeks after 2 weeks, & finally 6 months.
Haiz.... what a pain in the ass, people keep asking me "you haven't found a job?" for these months. I' so sick & tired of hearing those phrase. But what can I do? My life is already screwed up long ago, so I gotta suck it up. Well, if the previous 2 job that I interviewed for doesn't wants me, then I got no choice but to do just apply for any other job then. I gotta eat & spend $$ somehow, so $$ doesn't drop down from the sky. Let's all just die already since life is so screwed up.

CNY ard the corner

2012-01-09T14:42:00.005+08:00

Yet another festival is coming around... Well, it's good to have festival cos we will have holidays then, but the only part I hate this coming festival is gathering with my uncles, aunties. Reason? needless to say, all of them always like to do comparison, spreading gossips (which are not true), etc. But my mum love it, cos she can join in those stupid gossips, even though she always tells us that she never want to join in her sisterhood gossips, but she's always doing it, what a croak.
The most troublesome thing this time is that, I haven't got a job yet. I have ORD since last year end July, so I predicted that there will be like a tsunami of questions & lecturing sweeping me this time. Anyway, I'm prepared for it, so we shall see what happens next.
These past week haven't really do much, even the countdown for 2012 didn't really affect me much (I didn't even celebrate the countdown though). Just another year to me, without dreams, freedom, I will be just as dead as a log. But this is my life, & I guess I can't do much, praying for death doesn't seems to be working either. Perhaps the gods just want me to suffer as much as I could till the day I disappear from the world, that's fine with me.
Anyway, went for the interview for a job which I didn't want (my mum forced me into it as usual). From what I see, I flung it, but still gotta wait for the results after 15 days. So if I didn't get this job, I wonder what's next to come, I can't be wasting my time right?
Went to Chinatown with Terence last week, we went to PS Cafe, had some drinks and ate the dates Ice cream. I hate dates cos they taste weird, but surprisingly, the ice cream we had is
FANTASTIC.
Yesterday went to the Long House Coffee Shop to have the Fried Carrot Cake with my family. & then my family went to the temple beside it to offer incense, then I snapped this image, kinda love it.

Joy Before Tears

2011-12-30T14:16:00.002+08:00

Had a Fantastic Day yesterday during the Farewell for Marcus. Hasn't been that happy for quite along time, but yesterday I did enjoy myself when we were cycling, chatting, etc. So what made me that happy? Yesterday went for cycling in the Afternoon with Mich, Quan Lin & Wendy, even though it was Hell cos we cycle from East Coast Park, all the way to Changi Village & back to East Coast Park. If you think it's nothing, u guys go try it urself, it's hell lots of torture. We were aching like hell all the way throughout the whole journey. Lastly, to Marcus: It's great knowing you, even though we have some misunderstanding here & there in the past, but that's what friends gotta go through, & All the Best for when U get to Aussie!

Cold.... Not Because of the Weather

2011-12-23T17:11:00.003+08:00

Do you guys always feel empty, or pain in your heart? I don't mean those pain that can cause death, but pain like aching. It aches & stops & after a while it starts all over again, you feel so cold inside you, yet it's not due to the weather. That's how I felt over these few months. Thinking of so much things every now & then, in the night when no one can see or hear you, your tears start to fall down the cheek, you started crying yet you can't make a sound.
I cry alot these few years I think... Why? Even I tell you guys it will be futile, because deep inside, I've already given up EVERYTHING. Right now, there's nothing to hold me back to leave this world, to keep trying for myself & to be the real me.
X'Mas is coming, & after that, a brand New Year yet again, so don't disappoint EARTH, pls make 2012 World End a Fact rather than just a speculation. & lastly, to those who happens to believe in wishes, dreams, etc... Seriously, you guys can just forget about all this shit cos wishes & dreams doesn't happen, at least for me it doesn't.

I Love U...... Forever? For The Time Being? Or Just For The Sake Of Loving?

2011-12-19T22:00:00.002+08:00

Alright, my blog seems to be dying, so I shall start being active in blogging again I hope (*fingers crossed). Well, have been hearing from friends around me that they have broken up with their BF. Yup, you didn't see wrongly, you may think it's not like a big deal for me to blog about, but before I start to blog about this matter, thoughts came gushing into my mind. What is LOVE? How does it feel to be LOVED or to love another person? Does the so called FOREVER LOVE really exist? Very immature questions, even I myself think it's ridiculous for me to believe in such things.
If you ask me what is LOVE, I'll probably give you the answer: "I DON'T KNOW". Seriously, that will be my answer, firstly, I have yet to be in a relationship before even though I'm like 20+ years old & I really wished I could be in one. Looking at humans these days, not only the guys, but oso the girls, treating relationship like drinking water, really made me wonder if they really love their BF/GF.
So how does it to feel to love another person? Does your heart pound like you're being chased by the T-Rex in Jurassic Park? Do you dream of her/him even in your dreams? Do you smile or laugh ridiculously at something which reminds you of him/her even though it isn't funny? Well, if you have all the above mentioned for at least.... Let me think......... a month, I suppose you really love the person.
Arguments, Cold-wars. Yea, these are the things that a couple would have to experience to have a better understanding of one another & to build up their relationship. But, when the couple decides the say "Let's Break Up", do they really meant that? Will they regret? To me, if a person can just say 3 words above that easily, meant that she doesn't even care about the relationship or even me. Humans are such funny animals, when they are not yet a couple & fighting all obstacles to be one, they would tell each other how much they meant, how much they love each other. But when they are finally a couple, they fuss about even the smallest thing in the world. Even though it may be just a peanut matter, it may cause one side of the planet to say out the "Heartless Words". So does that make the love less TRUE? Cos I always hear people saying "True Love can withstand the test of Time".
Breaking ups, going back together, well, it may be normal, but if it happens that many times, don't you guys/babes think that you all should grow up & be mature when facing relationship? Saying those words is very easy, cos you just say it & f@ck off, that's it, how hard can it be? But think back to the time when both of you are trying to be together, you all fought so hard to get this far, doesn't it hurts to just let go of one another hand?
So, I want to ask all of you, do you guys/babes really treasure your other half? If you really do, how can you guys/babes just break up because of small matters like this? Why don't you all think of saying "I'm sorry". Well, Please don't get offended by my post, it's just my thoughts, cos I have yet to be in a relationship, I may not know how it is to be in one & the ups & downs, But to me, I would never say the 3 words that EASILY. So all of you should just THINK hard when you wanna spit out those words & treasure your other half.

The Day When Tears Become Uncontrollable

2011-11-05T21:53:00.002+08:00

Have been crying the whole day today. Woke up in the morning, & my mind started thinking & thinking, & so my tears keep falling down my cheek. Wipe off the tears, went to take a bath, just as I was looking out at the window panel, my tears was at its end of falling off from my eyes, but I hold on to it, taking it back. After that, sat in front of my PC, eating & viewing the videos from Youtube. Even though the videos are funny, my tears started rolling again, soon, my whole face is wet. Once again I wipe them off my face so as to prevent anyone at home to see me crying.
Why am I crying? Since when have I become a cry baby? Since when have I become so weak? I really duno.... The only thing I know is that I cry because I 'm at the crossroad of my life. In life, there are time when things doesn't happen the way u wanted it to be, u cry for it, u blame everyone for it, but after that everything will be alright. However, it wasn't the case for my situation. I wanted be what I want to be, but I can't. The only thing I can ask from the god is that: Can u grant me a peaceful death right now? I'm really tired of my life, I'm really tired of working so damn hard for a life that I didn't want, & I'm really tired of myself & the world....

Wandering Around This World

2011-09-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

Close to 2 months since I last updated this blog huh. Hmm, well...nowadays I got not much things to blog about anymore, cos I've finished my NS, now just waiting for the chance for me to get into the job. But fret not, I'm not closing this blog, but who cares anyway.
Haiz... Have been trying out for this particular job which is so freaking hard to get in. Well, I know in this life, I will never be able to do what I wanted to do, since that's the case I can only find a job that allows me to run from this life or rather this place. Know what I'm getting on? Clever Bitches....
Humans are very fascinating aren't they? They always want to get the things they can't get, & when they got hold of it, they want more & more. So much more that they can't handle. Nowadays does any human being still slow down their pace & listen to the sound of the wind? Look up to the Moon & Stars to reminisce? I think maybe there only 5% or less are doing so.
Just when will humans understand that beauty does not only come from the exterior but the interior itself? I have not yet understand that myself though. But I wish someone could teach me that.
If everyone knows when they are going to die, will they still be living like what they are now? The same routine over & over again, work, eat, sleep or will they start to notice the nature around them? I have so many questions yet no answers.

ORD lor....

2011-07-24T21:12:00.002+08:00

Finally ORD lor, yet there's so much mixed feeling. So what am I going to do next?? I really don't know, but I don't wanna just rot my life away. Well, I've got to say that I do miss the time & people I met in my Sqn these years. I know time won't go back & we got to keep moving on, but I think I just need a little more time to get myself ready for the cruel society.
Firstly to say to the people/friends I've made in my Sqn: Thank you so much guys (Fabian, Chee Wee, Encik Han, MSG Jeff, CC, Danny, Ah Guan & Eric), I really learned so much from u guys even though sometimes I have mood swing or rather a lot of the time. But I am really grateful that I'm posted to the Sqn with u guys coaching & teaching me. It is my pleasure to have made such strong bonds with all of u even though we have time when things doesn't work out. Hope our friendship doesn't end here.
Next to the friends (Jun Kiat, Tim & Chris) whom I have been with all these well in my Sqn: I'm really delighted to have friends like you guys for these years. We have times when we were suffering, we have time we were cheering for one another not to give up on our dreams, & we have time when we were all laughing together. Those were the days where I learned so much from u guys & bonded with each other. I will never forget those days, hopefully our friendship & fate doesn't just end here. No matter what happen in the future, I hope we can still keep in close contact with one another & I wish all of u all the best in pursuing ur dreams.

Counting Down to My ORD

2011-07-10T21:44:00.003+08:00

Finally it's time for me to count down towards my ORD, happy & sad at the same time. Why? Cos I've been in my Sqn for so long, more or less I've sort of have some feelings there. But, nvm, hopefully our team could still gather together often even though we're finish NS. Anyways, the most problematic thing right now is that I have not yet find a job!!!!!!!!!!! OMG...... ok, it's terrible I know.... Hmm... I really wonder can I find a job outside given my ability. Hopefully someone out that wants to employ me!
Recently have been developing this weird mood swing which I duno why. Nowadays I've been talking less than normal, & I suspect is highly due to the growing stress from ORDing. Haiz..... Can I just get what I want to do Pls?

Everyone listen to this song, I think it's amazing:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jUb1XQzNiCI&feature=related

OH11 Ended

2011-05-31T22:13:00.002+08:00

Finally 4 days of sweat & tears.... The OH11 has ended!!!! Well, I should not say I did a lot of things, but at least I did my part as an ambassador. Thru these 4 days, I saw so much things & yes again I started to think too much. The first 2 days were totally a nightmare cos basically we're under the hot sun for around 3 to 4 hours, & the whole place is flooded with so many people, o you guys can imagine how stuffy & humid the place is.
For the last 2 days, I was stationed at the exhibition area, not too bad cos at least it's air-conditioned. But I stood still for at least 6 hours. Actually I didn't realize how gorgeous the view of the runway is when the night falls until the last day. I have the urge to just lie on the runway & admire the sky, but we're not allowed, what a shame.

Anyway, while I was doing my part as an ambassador, these few things came to my mind:

1) Does friendship really last forever? Or is it just a few years & it'll end just there?
I always thought I can survive on my own, but these few years I looked back & saw how hard it was for me to move on without people with me. But friendship is something that doesn't last long doesn't it? Cos I can hardly see anyone who still keep a very close contact with the people they knew since young. Since it doesn't last long, why do we still make so much friends & make ourselves sad when everything just turns out to be like a fairytale?

2) Will I be alone for the rest of my life till it ends?
The feeling of being alone is so scary, even though I've been thru it for so long, I'm still afraid of loneliness. Well, who doesn't want a friend whom you can talk to when you really need someone to listen, even just sitting next to you silently, looking at you crying.

3) Can I break out from my shell & make friends just like other people?
When I look at how people can relate to one another & make friends it look so simple just like breathing in & out. But when I want to make a friend it just seems so difficult, even just to talk to someone. Why? I really couldn't figure it out.

Diarrhea

2011-05-10T17:40:00.002+08:00

Well, I'm having Diarrhea since yesterday evening & it suck, but it's kinda blessing for me cos I do not nid to go for work today!!!!!!
Have been quite some time since I update this blog though, but who cares. Anyway, last Saturday went to play Lan wif the usual, & after that went to watch THOR. Seriously, I think the show suck to the core. Other than the effects that are pretty well illustrated, the plot the storyline just doesn't make the cut. I though Suckerpunch was already a dreadful show, I didn't expect Thor to be int he exact same dreafulness as Suckerpunch (it's only slightly better).
This week I'm thinking of watching The Priest, hopefully it's not a disappointment. Working these days seems to be so tough, haiz.... time pls pass faster so I can ORD soon!!!

Weeks of Celebration

2011-03-05T20:02:00.002+08:00

For the past 2 weeks I've been going for celebrations. Well, it's not my friends' birthday or anything, but it's the celebration of my work centre. 1st is the celebration at OBS East Coast where I took part in the Amazing Race. Not too bad, we emerged the 1st after being stuck at just the 1st clue for at least 45 mins. Pretty impress with the results we had. The 2nd celebration which took place at Sentosa yesterday was pretty much the most tedious one. I was in the Dragon's Boat Team, we didn't win cos some "accident" happen. Well, no one was hurt luckily. It was my 1st time for Dragon's Boat actually, but I've got to say, it's really fun. Even though it's tiring, but I just like the feeling of rowing the boat, I don't know why.
After the event, a group of us wanted to play Beach Volleyball, so we proceeded with it & god damn it, it started to rain so heavily, that all of us gotta seek for shelter. So we waited for around 30mins or so for the rain to stop & proceeded to the Tanjong Beach. When we reach there, some of the guys complained there's no babes to see, WTF? So we switch over to Siloso Beach. So after switching here & there, we wasted around 30 mins before we could get things done. But problems just keep coming. The beach volleyball courts is fully OCCUPIED & there isn't much babes for us to ogle at, WTH!!! So we started playing without the boundaries. After an hour we've got tired of playing the game, so we switched to playing Rugby instead. My 1st time playing rugby, & I got to say, it's extremely tedious game, so if you've not had energy, don't think about playing the game.
After 2 hours of struggle, we finally ended the day by going over to Vivo City to have our dinner at Asian Kitchen if I never remember wrongly. Well, the food doesn't appeal to me & it's not worth the $$$.

Born Special

2011-02-11T20:45:00.002+08:00

I always believe that everyone is born to do something. For years I've been finding what am I born to do? This question have been bothering me since I was around 14, & as the years just keep passing by, I'm getting more & more afraid. Cos I really cant figure it out & I don't wanna regret when I grow old doing something I don't like. But there are so much things I need to consider. Firstly, my parents, they wouldn't support what career I've chosen for myself cos they think there's no future for me in the job. I can understand what they are feeling, but on the other hand, it's something I really wanna do & I would wanna do it for the rest of my life. I know I might not succeed in the career, but at least I wouldn't regret.
Secondly, I'm afraid of not capable of performing well in my career. That really worries me alot. I want people to see & feel that I'm really good, but I'm not sure if I'm good in the 1st place. As much as I wanted it so much, sometimes things just doesn't go your way. All I can do is Hope.... Hope that I can really be somebody.... Hope that I can succeed in whatever I do.

Back From M'sia After CNY

2011-02-08T21:51:00.005+08:00

I just came back from M'sia last Sun after staying there for around a week for CNY. Actually we planned to come back to S'pore only on Mon, but my annoying dad just wanna come back on Sun. & all thnx to him, I'm not able to go shop for my clothes!!!! Anyway, I've been missing some things since I came back. Such as the chinese television shows, I've got to say I'm so addicted watching them cos it's so funny. Luckily for me, during my stay, I'm able to watch the their 1st Telemovie called The Superb Matchmakers. It's freaking funny guys, I not sure if we're able to purchase it, but I know they going to release the DVD in M'sia! Other than that, the life there is also quite relaxing, which I really like, everyday just slack. Anyone pls..... Can help me get The Superb Matchmakers?

Tired Date

2011-01-30T12:35:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to play L4D2 with my Sqn mates. Finally after so long, we get to play it again even though at 1st I'm kinda shaky cos so long since I last played the game. We played for ard 5 to 6 hrs then everyone start to went home & left with Potato, Heng & I again. So we were thinking what to do next, & we kept walking back & fro from Iluma to Bugis Junction. Then finally we gave up on watching movies instead, we went back to LAN gaming. It was so tiring when I finally reached home around 12am. But thank god, it's raining! I just love the rain so much.

Thrown Like A Garbage, Left Alone Like A Thrash

2011-01-11T00:21:00.002+08:00

Suddenly, I felt that I'm so Lonely. Actually most of my living days I felt that way, but today it hit me hard enough to make me feel really sad. Well, as I said before in the past, no one really understand me. You may see me always laughing, smiling, bitching, gossiping with everyone, but do u all really think that's my true self? Ialways felt so lonely & scared that's why I pretend or tried to be so out-going to everyone even though I'm really not. I wanted to find someone who can really listen to me & tell them my feelings deep within me. I thought I could find 1, but the truth always hurts. Anway, I'm just so tired of facing my "Frenz" in my Sqn, cos I really don't know what to do or talk about anymore. I wished I can don't talk to them but they will ask me if I'm angry or etc. This really kills me.
Today, again I feel left alone. I shall not tell the whole story cos it drags, just summarising it. I was always the last person that everyone thought of unless for help. Even in Secondary School Days, Poly, & now. Do u all know how it feels? I'm always not so important in your lives, I wished I could cry but I just forgot how. When I ORD which is in July, hopefully I won't get to see or meet anyone from my Sqn. It will be so awkward seeing them again, & if we're to meet up I doubt I'll be going to. Cos I'm just gonna stick back to when I was Secondary 1 & 2, where Jerry Lim Doesn't even exist in everyones' mind. Hopefully I can die soon.....

Welcoming 2011

2010-12-31T14:54:00.002+08:00

Hmm, today is the eve of 2011. But it's not anything special to me or my family. Haiz.... a new year is coming, meaning more things are lining up for me to be done. I'm not gonna spell out all the resolutions cos I know they are FREAKING NOT GONNA COME TRUE. For those humans who think that theirs will come true, just keep dreaming huh.
Let's go back to yesterday, went to play L4D2 with my Sqn mates again at the same place. After that, we went to eat the famous Selegie Beancurd. I tell you all what, the beancurd is not nice at all la, so many people tell me it's damn nice, it's all bull crap. So after that, we went walking all around the place, then some of us went home 1st. Which left with Tim, Heng, Kang Dang & me. So we decided to go watch movie, but we went there & we cant decide on a show. So we went to have our dinner, & Tim ditched us again.... So 3 of us went to Mind Cafe to play!!!!! Played till around 10.45, then we went home.

Out to LAN again!!!!

2010-12-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I'm not feeling really good today cos I think I didn't slp well yesterday night & I woke up way too early this morning. Anyway, today I went to play L4D2 with my Sqn mates again. But this time we have different ppl playing. Quite fun actually playing with new ppl, but again, JINX!!!! He always without FAIL did stunts which I personally dun understand. But that's another issue.
So today during the morning, went to Safra Yishun for some celebration, & I took part in the Wii competition. My group lost, but it was my 1st time playing Wii, so I'm pretty happy with my score though. Hmm, I kinda not feeling to do anything nowadays, just have the feeling of lying on the patch of green grass & look at the sky from day to night, I really dunno why, & hopefully some GODDESS from some SACRED place can ENLIGHTEN me yea! Wish any beings who came about my blog an early HAPPY XMAS! I doubt anyone will read my blog these days huh, but I dun give a shit abt it. Soon I may just have a post abt someone at my workplace, & we can do some serious thrash-writing yea. I JUST LOVE IT!

L4D2 & movie

2010-11-27T18:32:00.002+08:00

Yesterday took a day off & went to play L4D2 with my unit mates. It was damn fun & I think I'm already addicted to playing it hahaha. Basically I just stumble when I played the 1st few matches but I came back with a vengeance after that, & manage to kick asses. We played quite a few hours before grabbing a bit at the small cafeteria there, where we have wan toon mee. After that, JK & Jerrold gotta make a move, which left Chris, Miah, YY & me. So we decided to catch a movie. We watched the next 3 days, hmm, I feel the plot wasn't too bad, I grade it 3/5 popcorns. There are certain times when I get soooo bored with the scenes, but the way the casts escape were the most breath taking part. They were so lucky & the timing & all were just amazing. The next month is a busy month cos lots of my frenz Birthday falls on December!

Back from Genting Highlands

2010-11-14T12:41:00.002+08:00

Finally back from Genting trip yesterday. It was so damn fun going on a trip with my friends. Kinda sad cos the time there seems to be passing so fast & we sort of have not enough time to spend. Anyway, I have to comment about the food that. Holy crap, humans pls dun bother to try those restaurant, food court or cafe like Hou Mei, Kopitiam & Hot pot, etc, at there, cos they suck & the service too. Yet we are actually paying service charge for the fuck up attitude they give us. Other than that, the trip was pretty all alright. We went shopping for most of our time there cos is SALES!!!! Yes, & that's why we got not enough time to spend & that we end up not having enough money too. Should have brought more $$$. Most importantly, I've lost money at the Casino due to my damn EGO!!! Arrgh!!!

Waiting For The Long Break

2010-11-09T20:17:00.002+08:00

Last Sat went out with Terence to buy the stuff for his CCN day. We went quite a lot of places from Si Mei to Newton then ended up in Plaza Sing. Anyway, has been quite peaceful at my workplace lately, so nothing much to update about that. But for the time being, I'm anticipating my very very long break. YES!!!! Starting from this Thurs, I'll be on leave till next Thurs, Hurray!!!!!! Finally got to rest from the horrible work. This week starting from Thurs I'll be going to Genting with some of my NS mates, hopefully will be a smooth trip yea, update when I return.

A Change

2010-10-14T20:56:00.002+08:00

Hmm, finally I've decided that I shall no longer be as hardworking as I am now at my workplace. Reason being that the lazies can get to slack like crazy & the rest of us gotta work so hard & sweat like mad. So wad for? It's not like I invested money there, so why not I be one of those slackers & enjoy life? Also, at my workplace, when u do something great u dun necessary get reward but if u do something wrong u definitely get punishments. Pls dun get mistaken that I want the rewards so freaking bad, is jus that I feel is so unfair. Furthermore, the "heads" always try to cover up for the slackers so they dun really get punish that much. Let me ask u all something, if your worker frequently comes to work late, will u punish them? If your worker refuses to do work & keep saying I DON'T WANT, will u punish them? & if your worker cheats on the TIME-OFFS will u punish them? In my case, my bosses doesn't. So to conclude that I shall state that my point of not working as hard as I used to be is perfectly OK!

Xiang Yun's 21st Birthday

2010-09-20T19:56:00.003+08:00

Last sat went to Pasir Ris Chalet to celebrate Xiang Yun's 21st Bday. We're suppose to reach at 7+ but we ended up being late, haha... so sorry yea got to ask u to wait for us. Anyway, finally met Da wei after so long. I guess around 1 year plus since we meet up, well, we did change alot I suppose. Time flies so quickly & Da Wei already studying in University, soon I'll also ORD & another phase of life will begin. How depressing huh. 4 more days of HELL, gotta get thru it! That's all for the week yea.

Yet another week

2010-09-11T21:33:00.002+08:00

Well well well, 1st Selamat Hari Raya Frenz!! I know it's yesterday, but I was too busy yesterday so I forgot to blog about it. Anyway, this week had been so tiring for me cos I have yet to complete some tasks that were given to me & I only have Monday to complete them. Hopefully I'll make it on time. nothing much to say, but people go watch this on Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DZA4J1f_NFw. It is freaking funny!!!

Just Another Week

2010-09-05T14:56:00.002+08:00

Last Fri marks the end of my course. Thank Guan Yin Ma! Throughout the whole course I just couldn't take it. The lecturer jus keeps dragging the time when we can knock off earlier & his bored to death games, which were soooooo childish. Anyway, last week went to MINDS CAFE with Tim, Jeremiah, Ah Heng & Kiat. Played from 2 to 6pm, it was damn cheap sia, $5 only. Furthermore, I got the chance to get back to TP to eat!! These few days have been so hot, People up there pls shed some droplets to EARTH!!!!!

After weeks & weeks

2010-08-22T13:46:00.002+08:00

Finally! After so many weeks of not being able to blog. I duno why but after I change my anti virus, I can blog again!! Well, these few weeks have been quite hectic. First, I finally got to sit on the Flyer for the cost of $10!!!! Thnx to Terence who took me to sit on it. The view up there is magnificent, but there's too much reflections on the glass which kinda affect us from viewing. But nvm, I finally sat on it.
A few weeks ago, there was a IOF dinner at Marina Barrage too. That was also my 1st time going there. Hmm, I love the gust of wind that seems to be blowing like no tml. I'm not sure if it is usually like tat. The dinner was ok, after the dinner, some of my colleagues & I went to the MINDS Cafe a Clarke Quay. We bitched & played till around 2pm, it was really damn fun, hopefully this kind of activity can happen more often.
During these few weeks I have been tasked to do up the noticeboard, which I have yet to complete it. Time is running up so fast, I need to complete it before my Sir come back sia!! & I'm also been asked to do some projects which I have yet start & will be due in like 2 1/2 weeks time, HOW!!!!

Chill out After Work

2010-07-10T20:34:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to E-Hub with Tim, Jeremiah & Joel to watch Despicable me. It's a great show I think, it's really hilarious & touching at some moments. Nevertheless, I give it 3.5/5 popcorns!! Well, nothing really happen lately, just celebrated my 21st with my polymates earlier on last week. Thnx you all, I really appreciate the gift! Next week shall be a really busy week for me. My posts are getting less, cos I really duno wad to write. Hopefully, there will soon be a really long post.

Just The Normal Day

2010-06-21T21:18:00.001+08:00

Today went to Bugis street wif Ah Heng to buy my vest. Finally got one which I like & it fits me. Well, after that we went to watch the A-Team at Bugis. Not bad I shall say, I give it a 3/5 popcorn.
The stunts of the show was pretty good, the timing , etc was shocking.
After that went to Compass Point to play Arcade & I shall prove 1 thing. The soft toy grabbing machine, I duno wad it is called, is freaking hard to play! I bet wif Ah Heng that I can grab one in the 1st try, but the machine proven me wrong.

Done With Life

2010-06-12T18:01:00.000+08:00

The cars, the 18 storey building, the colourful pills, the strong rope, the invisible air & the razor blade. How I wish either of it could **** me now.

Lost in Direction

2010-05-15T20:32:00.003+08:00

Well, these 1 week has been a busy week for me at my work, but thank god it's finally completed. Anyway, I'm kinda lost nowadays, or should I say since a few months back. Haiz... Nowadays, I don't even know what I'm doing & I can't even stay focus on my job. So much things to think about, it's breaking me apart. Have been putting a fake smile when I'm at work, but I'm used to it, & at home, I don't even feel like talking. Just wanna be alone in a far far place where I can start fresh. Without family, without friends, without the old me. But I know it's impossible.
Have been wondering it will be great if I could just keep sleeping & sleeping one day & never wake up. Since I'll cause problems with whoever I'm around with, why not just let me sleep & not wake up? Have u ever wonder will anyone even shed a drop of tears for u if u die? For me, I think no one ever will. People like me should not even have been born in this world. Dreams, passion, love, nothing seems to be happening to me. I'm just like the dried leaf that fell to the ground that anyone who pass by who step on & move on.

Majong In The Middle Of The Night At Ah Heng's House

2010-05-02T12:21:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to Ah Heng's House for Majong at night. Damn suay ar, keep winning those small tai, in the end lose around $9!!!! Haiz....nvm, still got next time. Anyway, These few weeks are kinda boring, everyday go work, come back home, eat dinner, sleep. The routine keeps going on & on. & I Still got 1year 3months before I ORD!!!!!!!

Failed Again

2010-04-04T16:39:00.001+08:00

Well, well, well, guess what? I failed my GWT test again! Holy piece of shit.... How the hell I flung it again???? Haiz..... Putting that aside, lately I've been thinking about lots of stuffs, from my current job to my future.
From these few months, I realize something that's very very crucial which I must say I'm very careless. Which is that there are actually someone in our circle trying to sow discord. Hmm... I got to know this after these few months which is kinda not like me yea? Anyway, the reason why he do that I suppose cos he wanna be the pet of all the people & trying to make all of us literally "to his side". Well, so now that I suspect that I shall keep to myself about all this stuff about trusting and what-so-ever, which I used to in the past. So I'm not gonna help anyone in the circle, just shut my eyes & my mouth & do only what I'm suppose to. & pray that I can survive thru all this shit for the remaining 1 year & 3 months.....

Depressing Day

2010-03-02T15:53:00.000+08:00

Well, today went for my 1st GWT exam. Guess what? I failed the exam by the stupid 1 mark. After I know my results, I was so fucking depressed & pissed off. Depressed on the fact that why the heck did I not pass the exam? I studied so hard for it & I spent 2 weeks on it, why the hell I just can't pass? I was so disappointed with myself. But I can't blame anyone other than myself, why am I so stupid, why did I wanted to score full marks by attempting the questions that I'm unsure of? On the other hand, I was very very pissed of by some of them who passed. At least 98% of them copied throughout the exams & they passed just because of that! & people like me basically just flunked it, it's so unfair! Those people should have their tongue sliced off, skin peeled off & poked their whole body with needles!!

Lunar New Year 2010

2010-02-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

Well well well, it has been too long since my last post yea, so I shall blog about the recent happenings yea. Hmm, actually nothing interesting these days, CNY has sort of ended cos the official holidays has ended for me. This year got less Ang Bao as compared to last year cos my Mum's side all can't give Ang Bao. Haiz.... But, this year CNY, I won quite a bit of $$$$ from Majong & Blackjack yea!!!! Haha..... Won around $40++ from 3 games, kinda worth it. Well, for my job, nothing much happen, just that I've learnt to make lanterns from ang bao & I can do it pretty well, wanna know why? Ask me personally then, hahahaha....

Selling Business Or Whatever You Call It

2010-01-17T22:02:00.001+08:00

Well, this post is for my eldest sister. Anyone who wants to Rent/Buy/Etc my Sisters' shop at Hougang Green, Pls pls pls contact me asap thru my email nightguardianicy@hotmail.com, my Friendster: http://profiles.friendster.com/29572075 or my facebook: http://www.facebook.com/azurelios

CONTACT ME ASAP YEA!

Another New Team

2010-01-11T20:37:00.000+08:00

Today's the 1st day that the 2 teams separates. Well, kinda weird cos normally we will have quite s high level of noise in the Training Room, but today there's only left with the 6 of us. Even though every week they will be rotating to come back to the HQ, but still I don't really like the separating part yea. Hmm, why must we keep separating sia, from BMT till now our group has separate for around 4 times alrdy. Haiz....no matter what I still have to face the fact that it's a 2 yrs plan, & I gonna have to deal with it whether anot I like it.

Ending 2009

2009-12-31T16:27:00.000+08:00

Well, it's the depressing day of the year, yea it's the end of 2009 today, which marks the fact that we will be growing older & moving forward to 2010. Hmm, there's nothing really much that I can proudly say I achieved that are not achieved in 2008. Haiz... kinda depressing huh. Well, that's my life, I can only live with it.

Achievements in 2009:
1) Become slightly more confident
2) Have a steady income (though it's not alot)
3) Able to make more decision on my own
4) Proceeding to the next phase of my life (NS)

Downfall in 2009:
1) Still can't seems to express my true self in front of the others
2) Still single
3) Still freaking UGLY!
4) Still don't know how to relate to the others
5) Still not signed with an agency
6) Still a Loner
7) Still can't really control my temper
8) Still reluctant to lose to anyone (even though I know I'm wrong)

Well, that's what I've basically did in the whole year. Generally nothing much, but I still need a big big step to move to the next phase of my life and hopefully 2010 would be a great year for me

Mich's 20th Birthday at Lil Bali

2009-12-13T11:53:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to Lil Bali to celebrate Mich's 20th Bday. Finally got to see my poly mates again after so long, well, everyone is doing quite well. We met up at Vivo City after which we then headed to Lil Bali. The 4 of us went off 1st after the cake ceremony, & That's for the day. & Happy Birthday Mich! Today's the actual day of your Birthday yea, Stay happy & healthy yea!

Graduated From AFTC

2009-12-03T18:21:00.000+08:00

Well, just came back from AFTC Graduation Ceremony. So obviously I'm now a qualified personnel. Today saw all my previous mates during AFTC time, seems that everyone is doing quite well now, good to see them again though. Initially wanted to go dinner together, but most of us are kinda drain out for the day, so we canceled the gathering. Gonna be a very busy week, so have to try get enough sleep to prepare myself for the days ahead!

4E3 Gathering At The Prata House

2009-11-21T22:47:00.000+08:00

Last Wed was a memorable day for me because it's our 4E3 class gathering! Finally after so long we met up with one another, that day was really a great day for me. In addition, this time for our gathering, more people of our class came which is a good thing cos we finally get to know how each other is doing now as some of us are out to the workforce. But sad to said, some of the usual wasn't there though. Well, also for my NS, we're getting separated again too. Haiz....Why must we keep separating sia, kinda miss my friends already. Buy anyway, today play majong with Terence, Jessica & Hui Min. Not bad, won about $12 all together. Also we chatted alot of stuffs, & Terence just said the damn freaking thing larh, it's not like you gonna die saying it. That's all for this week yea.

Meeting Up With Mates

2009-11-15T20:00:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I went back to TP to find Terence they all. Well, when I reached TP, they just finish the D Cup, so we went to the opposite as usual to have our lunch. After that, Mabel went home & Ronney went to work at IKEA. So the rest of us went to Parkway. I think I haven't been to Parkway before or maybe I did when I was young, but frankly speaking, it was a boring place. & surprisingly we found Gary working there, so went to talk to him & he showed us his "Magic". So after which Jing Xin had to go to Kovan so we walk with her to the bus stop and then we went to Settlers Cafe. Went home at 11.30PM and I was dead tired, that's it.

Final Day With AFTC Mates

2009-11-12T19:26:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was our last day with some of our AFTC mates. Haiz..... 6 weeks passes so fast and all of us have to be separated to our individual bases again. Well, kinda sad cos all of us are quite close together, hopefully we can get together frequently. Anyway, we went to Sakae Sushi to dine together, Chris & I went home 1st to change so we got there later then the others. It was quite fun and I believe we enjoyed ourselves & we took some photos too! I'll post them up when I get them. All the best ppl, & ROCK & ROLL!!!!!!

End Of Study At AFTC

2009-11-08T13:57:00.001+08:00

Well, last Thurs was our last night at AFTC. Hmm, kinda miss the days there cos all of us have fun actually and I actually made quite alot of friends as compared to Tekong days. But we still have 3 more days at AFTC before we all get posted out to the various bases. Anyway, I just saw the recent show : The Shan & Rozz Show. Guess what, they did an interview with RIS LOW!!! The video is Freaking funny and I've learnt a new word from her, which is SHINGZ!!!! Wanna know what that means? Go check it out at youtube or clicknetwork.

1st Subway

2009-10-31T12:46:00.001+08:00

Last Wed's Night's out went to eat Subway with Gary & Chee Wei. Well, frankly speaking, i don't really like it, is's not filling at all, after I ate the 6 Inch bread and coke, I still don't feel anything in my stomach. Moreover, the meat is pretty cold I shall say or rather totally cold which I hate. Whatever the case, the problem is I can't get FULL eating the bread!!!
Nothing much really happen last week, 11 days more before all of us post to our unit, haiz.....time passes really fast, still remember the 1st few days when I was there, I didn't even speak alot with the others. But as the days goes on, we kinda all mixed around together very well I shall say. Well, good luck everyone!!

Wishing For A Fairytale Ending

2009-10-18T14:18:00.000+08:00

Hmm, Have been quite busy these few weeks with exams, but I think I am coping well with the life at AFTC. I have not been sleeping well these few days cos I have been thinking about "Her". Well, I have been too silly to think of "Her" cos she might not even remember me now, nevertheless, this is what came across my mind:

Our Primary School invites us back for our 10th year reunion and I went back and saw her. Then the 2 of us walk around at the big field where in the past we used to walk home together. & so, the 2 of us just kept chatting & finally I build up my courage & confess to her. In response, she said the same thing to me. & obviously ever Fairytale ending: Happily Ever After.

Haha...ok laugh all you want, I know it's a wishful thinking. She would probably already don't recognize me at all. Haiz.....What ever the case is, it's a dream for me, & as much as I wanted to believe in it or rather for it to happen, I know it's IMPOSSIBLE.

Hard To Go On

2009-10-04T17:51:00.000+08:00

Hmm.... quite some time since my last post, well, I have been thinking so many things from the past. The stuffs that I regretted not doing, thinking back of those memories where we are all together, when we have joy and sadness. It's so good to be a child who do not need to think that much. The times when I was with my friends when I was around 6 to 7 years old were really precious, as much as I wanted to go back to those days, I know I can't. Cos everyone has to move on and absolutely no one has the ability to bring me back. Well, I just wanna tell those people who are reading this blog that remember and treasure the time you have now cos you can never ever have that moment again. I understand you all might say I'm redundant to say all these, but take some time and sit back to think about it, when you really feel what I'm trying to say, you will know how much you lost.

Class Gathering At Pei Yu House

2009-09-20T13:15:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to Pei Yu's house for class gathering. Before going, went to Iluma with Mich, Jason, Lynette, Wendy & Ke Xian. Hmm, There's nothing really much down there, so we went to eat at Thai Express, which at 1st I thought it wouldn't taste nice but turns out the other way. After lunch, Ke Xian went off 1st and the rest of us went to watch I Love You, Beth Cooper. Well, I feel that it wasn't very bad and it wasn't very good either, so it's rated 2.8/5 popcorns by me. Anyway, after that we went to Pei Yu's House for Steamboat!!!!! It was damn good, so many food we can't finish, cocktail, desserts, etc.... There were 7 of us yesterday, but we had a lot of fun. Chatted and gossiped till around 11.20pm then headed home. Thanks Pei Yu and your Mum for the wonderful gesture!

Mini Update Of Wardrobe

2009-09-15T14:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a tiring yet fruitful day for me cos I've sort of updated my wardrobe!!! Went to snag for my stuffs with Terence at Bugis area. So glad that I managed to grab some really cheap stuff, and the 2 of us kept walking and walking until our legs almost break just to look for the hat/cap that suits me!!! Well, finally I managed to find the hat/cap at 77th street after we went to several other shops. Phew, so lucky, thnx a lot Terence for accompanying me to search for my clothes yea. Most importantly, yesterday the most expensive thing I've got, is my dinner. I ate my Yong Tau Fu for heck $7.20!!!!! Damn expensive la, and somemore it taste like shit!

Movie & Some Catching Up With Terence

2009-09-11T12:10:00.001+08:00

Yesterday went to TM with Terence to watch Aliens in the Attic at 9Pm. Hmm, the wasn't too bad just that in the beginning it is kinda of draggy for me. I rate it 3/5 popcorns. Anyway, chatted with Terence about alot of stuffs, & they oso got their results yesterday, Congrats for Terence cos his GPA increased alot I shall say. But, Siang Phong ar, no nid sad la, still got 3 more sems u sure can score better one, this is just a slight decrease, no nid to be depressed ar. Next sem I tink I will have more time, so can help u with ur exams more if I am really up to the job, hahaha...

Basketballed with BMT Mates

2009-09-10T13:06:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to Woodlands to play basketball with some of my BMT mates. Well, I'm not a good basketball player or shall I say I suck at playing it, our Platoon Sergeant came to join us at ard 8.30pm. Anyway, most of them I still dunno their names cos I've talk to them before, but yesterday's game didn't change the situation too. After the game, Daniel, me, Jason & his friend went to eat before heading home. Reach home at about 11.30pm, damn tired and shag, but quite fun jus to have everyone around doing stuff together.

1st Day After POC

2009-09-08T20:21:00.002+08:00

Well, today as usual I woke up at around 6+ cos I still not adjusted to the lifestyle as during BMT I normally wake up around 5+. But I manage to get back to sleep till around 10+. Meet up with Vincent, Jeremy & Jin Yu at Cathay to exchange our Billy Bombers vouchers. Jeremy went off early, so the rest of us went to watch Year 1. Not too bad I give it a 2.8/5 popcorns. After the movie, we went to play the arcade till 5 then we set off to home. Well, this is the 1st day activity that I have after my POC, hopefully it will get better.

POC Wiith Mixed Feelings

2009-09-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

When I was still in BMT I was always hoping that I could quickly finish the 7 weeks then POC & get out of Tekong. However, today is my POC day yet I feel so weird inside. I felt kinda sad cos all of us struggled thru the hardship, the feeling of homesick, etc. So there is some kind of bond which I dunno how to describe between us. Hopefully all of us can gather together frequently in the future. No doubt that I do made some frenz & I believe it is the same for the other, all the best for all of you in the future & thnx alot all the Sirs & Sergeants for these past 7 weeks, we all have times where we were really happy & sad, but we made it thru with all of your help.

POC! Soon!!!

2009-09-04T22:15:00.001+08:00

Well, finally is the last week in BMT, for these 7 weeks we have gone thru so much.... & I suppose all of us has learnt something that's valuable. Haiz....my POC will be next Monday which means that I am progressing to my next phase of my NS life. Well, I gonna say I will remember & miss the people I met there. All the hardwork & the time we spent together, all these precious memories will be with me forever. Hopefully we can all get together again frequently.

New Places, New People, New Me

2009-08-17T13:09:00.000+08:00

Hmm, well, came back from Tekong on Sat, a pretty long & tiring week though. Something just came across my mind recently, which is that when people are in a new environment, they tend to think more. An example will be me, when I was in Tekong, everything were new to me, the place, the people and everything. It made me think harder about what I did in the past regardless of whether good or bad. I actually found it a blessing for me cos I finally realize how important my family & friends are to me. Especially my mum, I didn't know how much I needed her until I was in Tekong. Hopefully after the BMT, I will become a new & better person that can inspire & help others.

First Book Out

2009-08-09T15:35:00.001+08:00

Finally, after 2 weeks of confinement I'm back home. Phew.... it was quite tiring both mentally & physically for me even though what I am doing is not as tough as the As & Bs. However, it feels great to be back home, never felt this good before. Gotta go in today again, & hopefully can book out next week too. Bless me pls!!!! & HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!!!

Going Bald

2009-07-23T17:10:00.000+08:00

Well, this is it, tomorrow is the day that I finally go bald. I'm so gonna miss my hair, but it will always grow back isn't it? Anyway, thnx all for ur concern for me yea. Hmm, I can have my time inside to think about alot of things that bothers me so much, & hopefully I will be able find solutions for all my doubts. See ya'll in 2 weeks time..

New Haircut before NS

2009-07-20T16:33:00.000+08:00

Well, today I went to my Aunt's house to sort of trim my hair before going in NS. My long fringe is finally off my head, and now, I'm left with this pathetic little bit of hair.... Haiz...But, it will always grow back yea... Well, going in this Fri, so getting ready soon....

Dead is Better than Alive

2009-07-17T18:55:00.000+08:00

Hmm.....I'm extremely sad today, dun ask me why.... How I wish I was never born in this family. If I have a choice, I rather die. Haiz... Looking at how others live their lives makes me wonder that what am I borned for? I could see people laughing & smiling everyday, but why is it that it was so hard for me to do so? Nevertheless, I am at fault too sometimes, cos I believe it takes two hands to clap.

After 3 1/2 weeks

2009-07-16T15:33:00.000+08:00

Finally!!!! After 3 and half weeks of boredom at home without my desktop, I finally get to use a lappy again!!!!! Actually I just signed up the wireless so I've got a free lappy for me to use for the time being. Well, in these 3 weeks lots of things have happen.

1st thing) Nikki went to Australia to study.... We sent her off on the 22 June 09, so saddening, haiz... Anyway, all the best for ur studies & take good care of urself yea!

2nd thing) I finally went to Pulau Ubin!!! Ok, laugh all u want. I have been on S'pore for 20 years, & last last Sunday, I went to Ubin with my family, cos my 8th Aunt came back for holiday with her children after 3 long years. Also, my cousin & his Gf went with us too... Erm, I should say it is quite fun if u like the nature, but if u go Ubin pls remember to apply insect repeller.

3rd thing) I celebrated my Birthday with one of my bros in Sec Sch whose Birthday falls on the same date as me. Well, we took lots of photos too. Thnx yea Faey Mum & Damn Gorgeous for celebrating our birthday

4th thing) I finally got to play majong after like 2 months or so.. Last saturday played majong with Terence, Jessica & Hui Min at my house. So sad, my 1st time losing money playing with them, but still ok, I lost about $1.30 overall, but Jessica lost about $15++....

Birthday Celebration with Polymates

2009-06-23T18:49:00.000+08:00

Well, yesterday went to Xin Wang at City Hall with Lynette, Michelle, Bibicia & Jason to have our dinner. & again they celebrated my birthday for me in advance. They helped me foot my bills at Xin Wang & bought a cake for me too.... haha... so paiseh sia..... Anyway thnx alot ppl. After that went to find Wei Ting at her work place at Somerset there, but we cant go in cos we're all under 25. So we went to Acid Bar further down, & I've learnt pretty much stuffs. Then after that Ah Boon & Dwayne (I duno how to spell) came along to find us. We stay for pretty long at the bar and then I got off 1st. Once again thnx alot ppl, I really appreciate it.

Prata House Gathering

2009-06-21T13:42:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was our E43 gathering again at the Prata House. Hmm.... but only 7 of us turn up. Well, Philip was the latest when everyone reach at around 9.30, he reached at 12.20AM. Basically, we are just gossiping about our classmates during sec sch days, hahaha...No doubt we've got lots of fun. Also, yesterday Nicholas Wu came out of the camp at Tekong for the 1st time. So we thought we could gather together. Ok, he is slimmer but still has that ++, but the obvious is that he got shaved off (his hair). Next week, Nikki is flying to Brisbon, Australia to study, all the best for u Nikki...

E43 Gathering

2009-06-14T13:52:00.000+08:00

Yesterday have a gathering with my secondary school friends. It has been a very very long time since we meet... Well, not a lot of them turn up, but the 8 of us still enjoy ourselves very much. As usual, quite a number of late-comers, and some of them have to leave early, so we ended quite early too. We went to chit chat at Far East the top level "food court", then later after Eleanor left, we went down to basement to roam around and finally, we ended up at Subway talking & talking again.... We're meeting up again on the 20 Jun, so hopefully more of them will turn up.....

These are the photos we took

Family Outing & FDM MC Outing

2009-06-11T12:17:00.002+08:00

Well, well, well, my blog is rotting, so I'm updating it.....isn't it obvious, holy shit, I'm not myself today. Anyway, last Sunday was a family outing day for my family & my youngest aunt's family. So we went to Changi Beach to BBQ. Basically we did nothing much, it was sooooo boring, which actually made me feel that it is a total waste of my time going.. Haiz....I could have spent my morning sleeping rather than waking up sooooo early for the shit. Okies, enough of that.

A Crane I made with sand

Another picture of it

Next is the FDM MC Outing on Monday 8th June. Well, it was very fun I have to say. We meet at 6.30pm at City Hall Mrt, as usual latecomers, so we only set off at abt 7. At 1st, we're going to hot pot culture to eat, but, the they say that they do not have table for 10, so we changed our destination to Fish & Co. Hmm, as usual those who know me well knows that I don't talk when I eat, unless it is urgent. So, my side was damn quiet, & Sarah's side was noisy, great a good balance....hahaha.... After that, we went to sit down at a place, I don't know where, & chit chat & gossip alot of things... To my surprise..... We heard a very very very big secret from Liza!!!!!! I'm not gonna say.....Haha.....

Our Gathering Picture I think we should give ourselves a name too!!!!!

Aftermath of FDM Freshmen Camp

2009-05-25T17:55:00.001+08:00

As promised, the photos of the camp. well, let the photos do the talking cos I don't know what to say..... These photos are taken by the 4 camp photographers, thnx ya....

FDM Family photo

My Team during Final Clash

Mabel's Team during Final Clash

Birthday celebration for a freshie ( I duno his name), Anqi, Sarah & Marcus

The Main Comms' Dance

Variety Night

Ghost at Blk 18??

Makeup for Spooky Trail

The Helpers!!

Well well well, those photos above are pretty glam aren't they? Now the photos & videos below are the hard work of the main comms during the planning stages, lets take a look....

Yi Hang as the Black Hell Keeper during our trail

Siang Phong as the White Hell Keeper during the Spooky Trail trial

The Red Demon (Also by Siang Phong)

The Halfer (It's Siang Phong again)

Siang Phong the Geesus

Vampy

Here are the Videos:

Graduated

2009-05-21T12:26:00.001+08:00

Hmm, well, yesterday is a pretty sad day for me cos I am officially graduated from TP FDM. Haiz....that means I will not meet my poly friends that frequently. Well, since everyone has their paths to go, I can only wish them the best in everything they do. It's a weird thing isn't it? When you are with your friends no matter during Primary, Secondary or Poly life, you will hardly treasure the time with them. So after you graduated, you will start to feel that you should have done this and that. Regrets is the word to use, and I hate to have regrets in my life cos I already have plenty of that. Hopefully, we can still be like we used to be N602!!!! Wishing all of you Happy everyday & be the best in everything you do.

FDM 2nd Camp

2009-05-18T12:49:00.002+08:00

Yesterday just finish the FDM Camp. Well, I gotta say it's a good camp cos I enjoy myself as a helper even though it is very tiring. From the feedbacks we've got I guess I need not have to say them again. But, I felt that it is a great experience for you all as the main comms. It is the 1st time you all are organizing a camp, so there will surely have errors here & there, I just wish that these will not affect the morale of all of you. Anyway, Thnx to the other helpers, taggers & station masters, without all of you the camp will not be so successful. Erm, I'm kinda weak & tired now, so I guess I will continue on the next post & upload some photos from the camp too...

What Do You Want To Be?

2009-05-06T16:46:00.000+08:00

Hmm, have been going back to school to help out and finalize the Spooky Trail. Well, ate Pizza again yesterday for dinner cos we're trying out the idea for Spooky Trail, so don't have much time to go out of school to dine.
Anyway, remember when you were young & your teacher asked you what do you want to be when you grow up? Well, most of you, I bet with my life, you will be saying"Doctor, Policeman, Soldier, Singer or Teacher". My guess is right isn't it? As time passes, you grew up becoming more aware of the world, knowing that your dream job normally doesn't pay you that much, & with this little amount of salary, you might not be able to satisfy your own needs. So you would rather take up jobs that you don't like with rather higher wages than your dream job. Basically, I'm just wondering should I go for my dreams? Its pretty tough for me, & I don't know if I will be able to succeed in the end.
Heard of Marcus Schenkenberg, Travis Fimmel, Mathias Lauridsen or Tyson Beckford? If you know who are they, then you will just know what I want to become. But i swear with my life, it's not gonna be easy for me as the people I mentioned just now came a long way too until they become who they are now. I can only hope that I will be like them in the future, I will try my hardest to do so even though it's tough.

New Haircut

2009-05-02T15:11:00.001+08:00

Got a new haircut today.... Well, I got to say it's pretty good for me, it suits me yea. Haiz....have been slacking at home since duno when cos the job didn't contact me for ard 3 weeks already. Anyway, it's better this way, cos FDM Club camp is coming soon and there is so much things to be done for the ST. Have been in school with Siang Phong & Yi Hang on Wednesday to continue our ST. Thnx Yi Hang for accompanying us during the ST & give us ur comments. 1 more week to go, gotta work hard everyone!

Side View 1

Side View 2

Front View 1

2009-04-26T13:59:00.000+08:00

Well, it has been a long time since I last blogged. Pretty much things happened during these few weeks. Firstly, my grandma pass away, it was kinda sudden which made us all very panicked. My mum well, she's very upset of course, but everything came to a close 1 week afetr my grandma's death.
2 weeks before, went to the Changi Beach with my aunt and her family. It was very tiring I gotta say, as we have to play with their children, which most of u knows that, I pretty much doesn't like children.
Have been planning the Spooky Trail with Siang Phong & Terence pretty often this month cos the camp will be down on May 15 to 17, so gotta speed up, restructure & finalize it.
& yesterday, finally got the chance to play majong again with Yong Han, Grala, Terence & Jessica. Well, it has been a full 1 month since I last played. Got some profits from the game, kinda glad that everyone is doing quite well now.

2nd FDM Amazing Race

2009-03-21T16:08:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went back to TP at 7.30+++ to help out in the Juniors' event for our club, I don't know what it is named, so don't ask me. Anyway, only Sherry & me were there as the only seniors, so pretty sad cos I thought we could get together.... Well, the early part of the day start off with the games in the school. Following which, we set off for the so called Amazing Race, and I was teamed with Yan Ni & Terence as Station Masters. Our 1st station was at IKEA, & the 3 of us were rushing like mad as the 1st participating team had already set off to our station. When we are in IKEA, we were totally lost there, we kept moving in the mall, until we finally found a spot to station. After the station at IKEA, we then moved on to the MINT Museum. Basically, for our station, we either rushed like mad or waited like mad.... Haha.. No offense..... It was kinda fun for me, but of course like all other events that I have joined before there are areas for improvements.
Haiz.....anyway, I'vejust cut my hair on Tuesday, & I'm so not satisfied with it.. I have been looking for new hairstyles, but I don't know which suits me better, so I narrowed down to these few hairstyles:

Ikuta Toma 1

Ikuta Toma 2

Jiro Wang

Aaron Yan

Settlers' Cafe

2009-03-05T11:52:00.001+08:00

Well, yesterday met up with Wei Ting & Terence to go play. First we were supposed to meet at Sungei Road Flea Market. Terence & I went together cos we do not know how to go there, We reached Bugis at around 5pm, and as usual Wei Ting will be joining us later. So the 2 of us went around to look for the place, & we got lost..... We keep walking & walking until Mustafa, then finally Wei Ting called us.... after like an hour, we finally reached the place, & as I predicted, its the place that I went before!!!! We bought nothing! & We walk for no reason!!!!
Anyway, after dinner, we went to the Settlers' Cafe at Clark Quay. My 1st time to the cafe though.... Well, I got to say its fun, & the staffs there are also very polite to us.... They recommended alot of stuff to us & teached us all the games..
But......... the sad thing is that, after we are going off.... I felt very sick...Haha...Don't know what happen to me, but got to stay home today.....

A True Class Chalet

2009-02-26T20:41:00.001+08:00

Well, finally reached home yesterday after 3 days & 2 nights of chalet at Aloha Loyang. Its a great class chalet I've gotta say. I enjoyed everyday at the chalet, I think everyone does rite? Anyway...for the 1st time, our class has finally a true class chalet, almost all of us came for the chalet, except for 3 people who are unable to make it. Well, its a huge success... Have been sleeping at ard 4++ during the chalet as we have so much to talk about and we know deep inside us that after this chalet, it will be very rare for us to gather together again as a class as all of us have to move on to the next phase of our lives. So I really treasured the time we had during the chalet. On the 2nd day, we've got the gift exchange, & everyone was happy to receive the gift that we've got. I got the gift from my Bro, Yong Han and its a majong massage cushion!!! Apparently, I like the gift very much..haha.... We also celebrated my Dad, Rais's birthday too....I'll post up the pictures once I got them.... But for now, the gift I got from Yong Han:

"Fa Cai"

Valentine 2009

2009-02-15T19:52:00.000+08:00

Well, my poly sch life has ended even though not officially two days ago, I'm feeling quite lost... But within this last week, all of us treasured the time we have together especially Wei Ting, Grala & I. The 3 of us have been sort of meeting each other this week for mostly Majong...Haha....Anyway updates on what I have done on this week:

Wednesday
Went to Suntec City (my 1st time in the building) to shop around while waiting for movie. Then, 7.15pm, Terence, Wei Ting & I set off to watch the movie: Underworld: Rise of the Lycans. Well, I gotta say its a great film, I give it a 4/5. U would be quite confused with the story if u didn't watch the 1st & 2nd part of the movie. After the movie, we went camwhoring at I forgot the place name & I don't have the photos yet. I will post up the photos when I get them.

Thursday
Went to my last day of school at Temasek Poly! Haiz...Saddening day cos we didn't do much on the last day itself, but we still have the class chalet this coming month and we will be meeting each other in the future I suppose.

Friday
Went to school to teach Siang Phong TBP and received Valentine gift from Terence. Haha...thnx alot, the choco are damn nice.... Then went to eat lunch 1st with some of the N802s (Anqi, Sarah, Terence, Jessica & Hui Min) at Jurong cafe outside school. I ordered the fried hokkien noodle that Gary recommended to me last time, it's delicious.....Then, went back to school to teach Siang Phong TBP and done up & finish my job as a Treasurer. Haha...Then I went to Terence house to play Majong again!!!! I won $6+++ that day, pretty lucky yea.

Saturday
woke up at 9.30am to prepare for majong session with Wei Ting, Grala & Terence. Supposely I should wake up at 8.30am but I dunno why I kept sleeping till 9.30am. Then I gotta rush off to brush my teeth, bath and prepare everything.... As usual, everyone is late, but Wei Ting is the earliest the 1st time. Haha.......Anyway, I was to go to Shendia's granny's house for BBQ, but I didn't go.... sry yea......Well, I went out with Wei Ting & Terence instead to eat Laksa at Bugis then, we walked and chatted alot to the Millenia Walk there the two tall towers. I didn't know of that place until Terence brought us there... We had lots of fun playing in the water which makes us all damn wet, its a great feeling... Thnx yea Terence....I have lots of fun. As usual we had our camwhoring time:

Our Best Shots for the day at Millenia Walk the Two Towers Fountain there

Another pretty good shot

My eyes got rather small

Oh...Can't See my eyes

Can't see my eyes again

Can't see Wei Ting & my eyes

My eyes TOO Small

Again same fault

Slightly better, can see a little of my eyes

This is a pretty great shot but can't see my eyes again

Wrong angle of mine

Oh...Terence face got halfed

Well, I actually like this picture but the light makes our face turned black

Too Dark

Terence & I

Wei Ting Standing alone (test shot)

Sepia look

Wei Ting trying to do model shots

Terence & I (the lighting from the water makes us look like vampires)

Heres the place

Another shot of the place

Counting Down

2009-02-04T17:06:00.000+08:00

Well, all presentations were finally over yesterday which means that I am free from work now, but....I don't feel glad at all....Maybe its because we all are graduating in 1 week time. Haiz....the time has finally gonna be here, I suddenly hope that I could move backwards to change the things. Hmm, maybe everyone wants to reverse the time, but I wanted it more than anybody else.
FDM Club AGM is tomorrow, but nowadays I don't feel the fire in me anymore. Its just a day to day routine for me now. Going to school and spend as much time as I can with my Friends, going home as slow as I could, waiting for the next day to be a long one. Haiz... tiring procedure for me..... so long.....

Personality Test

2009-02-03T23:01:00.000+08:00

Haiz....time is running up...anyway, did a personality test online (http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx) & the results is as below:

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent (erm maybe), honest (definitely not) and sweet (Sweet? hmm). You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. (Not very True Overall)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart (Not necessary) and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style (Nope). This makes you an attractive person (not true) in many people's eyes. (Not True Overall)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. (Well, this part is pretty true, haha..)

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. (Very True too)

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas (yea, I dun like to study). You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart (BINGO), so you will probably end up with an unusual job (I'm not sure for this). (Quite true for this section)

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success. (Well, pretty true)

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure (Bullseye) and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous (Exactly what I needed). (Very true for this part)

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control (Precisely). Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel (Right On). (Very True)

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts (True True). You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems (Correct), but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust (BINGO again). (Very Very True for this part)

Well, thats all for today, more updates coming right up on this week, be right back :)

Presentation's Over

2009-01-22T19:41:00.000+08:00

Finally, the bored to the core subject MSA presentation was over on Tues!!!!! Phew, I have been working on the project lyk duno how many weeks and finally its over. Well, our feedbacks weren't too bad, just that we spoke too much without letting the other to have the chance to speak. Haha....Anyway, have been slacking this 2 days, and I'm going to graduate really soon...Haiz...so sad sia.... Class chalet fixed on the 23 Feb, Chinese New Year fixed on the 1st day to Grala hse at night, Friday & Saturday my Palace Open House....

Thoughts

2009-01-05T22:58:00.000+08:00

Hmm....How does it felt when you think that you are lost? But the problem is that you are unsure yourself that you are lost. Very stupid question huh, anyway, to be truthful, I feel like I lost everything including myself.....Did I or did I not? Haiz.....But this time, I wasn't that scared or worried which I normally does when I feel lost. Maybe I have grown up more than I expected or even noticed. After do much things that I have went through, friends leaving, meeting new friends, feeling down, everything seems to be nothing to me, perhaps I've become a piece of wooden block? How I wish that I am very sad and to cry for days, but I just don't have that feeling which I used to have. But WHY???? If I could just let it out and cry like a child, I will feel better.....
Talking about crying, how long have I not shed a tear...hmmm....let me think.....erm....If I'm not wrong is about a few months close to a year...I remember is because of the Jap show One Litres of Tears. I can't hold on even though I tried sooooo hard, from episode 2 I already feel like tearing down but I manage to hold on till episode 5......Its the 1st Jap Show that I was chasing it since young.....Haiz...Its a blessing to have so much water in your eyes sometimes isn't it? Crying isn't that bad afterall, is a way for u to relieve yourself from the pain u felt and the loneliness u have in ur heart.
Loneliness, I like my way of loneliness, I mean I sometimes love to be lonely. Well, sometimes I just felt that no one could be trusted, no should be most of the time, the world is so scary that I wish I could just keep sleeping in my world, but I cant..... So being alone is the only choice I can make to keep myself protected and secure...
Well, I don't even know what I writing, so just ignore my post if u think is hell reading it......

FDM 2009 Forum

2009-01-04T20:40:00.001+08:00

Yesterday went to help out for the FDM Forum 2009. First time helping out in the Forum, anyway took a lot of pictures with both the team of FDM Forum 2009 & FDM 3rd Anniversary. Well, lets take a look at the snaps:

Me, Sarah & Terrence = Bros

Anqi & Sarah = GFs

FDM 3rd Anniversary Team snapping from the BOTTOM of the lift (Finally can take a picture together)

FDM 3rd Anniversary Team snapping from the TOP of the lift

FDM 3rd Anniversary Team snapping from the FRONT of the lift (OH....my eyes are closed =X)

Calvin, Jing Xin, Siang Phong & Mabel talking about the food

4 of us in the LT

Ann Ann & Amanda at the reception

Ooooo....Caught in the act?

Mabel & Jing Xin folding the cloth

People registrating

FDM Forum 2009 Team (some missing)

FDM Forum 2009 Team (some missing again)

Anyway, Everyone (those applying Polys) pls put FDM = Integrated Facility Design & Management = T28 as ur 1st choice!!!! Its a great Course!!!!

A New Year Has Arrived Again

2009-01-01T13:53:00.002+08:00

Haiz.....Its so saddening, a new year has just arrived again...which means that I have one day shorter to live...haiz...Well, let me think what I have done for the previous year.

Hmm......Basically nothing really much that is very exciting to me:
1) My 1st working experience since I was born (due to SIP, haha...)
2) Being more Active in the FDM Main Comms
3) My 1st ever big event of my 19 years of living, the FDM 3rd Anniversary
4) Get to know more people
5) Got more $$$ than 2007

Haiz...let see what I didn't achieve:
1) Still too shy
2) Still unwilling to lose to others
3) Still wanting to hold on
4) Still pessimistic
5) Still UGLY!!
6) Still no Courage
7) GPA still never get above 3.0
8) Still like to dream
9) Still don't know what I want
10) Still alone
11) Still have not got a GF
12) Still the same

Haiz......Nothing much change in me compared to 2007, what a letdown, anyway, one day less to live, so gotta achieve what I not achieve yet

3rd Day of Staying at home

2008-12-31T13:41:00.000+08:00

1st of all, congrats to Siang Phong for doing well in his ESFAC & TBP, haha.....never throw my face....Sure can Z one...Haha...Anyway, got tagged by Anqi to this so I shall complete these dutifully:

Quiz 1
1. Pick a word that begins with the first letter of your name.
- L for Loneliness
2. Who are you missing right now?
- erm, i not very sure
3. Your ex shows up randomly at your house , what do you say?
- Haha..I dun have a ex....
4. How many bedrooms are in your house?
- three.
5. Is there a reason for your profile song?
- Well, I like it sooooo much.....
6. Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
- nah, i dun realy hate girls...
7. Who was your last text message from?
- Anqi
8. What time did you wake up this morning?
- 10.30am
9. If someone liked you right now , would you want them to tell you?
- Well, if I like her to........
10. Did you mean it when you said "i love you" last?
- Yea
11. Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single?
- Perhaps not?
12. What is wrong with you now?
- I'm tooo shy....
13. Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
- I don't think so, it depends on my fate isn't it?
14. Would you kiss someone to make your ex bf/gf mad?
- no
15. Do you believe exes can really ever be "just friends"?
- I don't
16. Do you use T9 , word or abc?
- abc
17. Do you tell your mum everything?
- Nope...I'm a strategist
18. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
- I always cry when I'm alone....
19. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
- Nope, I'm too shy to say that....
20.Who can you trust?
- No one...I only believe in myself, living things are so not trustworthy...

Quiz 2
1. Besides Your Lips, Where Is Your Favourite Spot To Get Kissed?
- Nose.....Haha....
2. How Did You Feel When You Woke Up This Morning?
- Bored.....
3. Who Was The Last Person You Took A Picture Of?
- NEWS album...is that counted?
4. Would You Consider Yourself To Be Spoiled?
- erm, to an extent yes
5. Would You Ever Donate Blood?
- I'm not sure....
6. Have You Ever Had A Best Friend Who Was Of The Opposite Sex?
- Ya, thats Faey mum!!
7. Do You Want Someone Dead?
- No..What for want them die, I want them to suffer & watch how I succeed
8. What Does Your Last Text Message Says?
- I'm already going out of sch
9. What Are You Thinking Right Now?
- Nothing...
10. Do You Wish Someone Was With You Right Now?
- Sort of...
11. What Time Did You Go To Sleep Last Night?
- 12am
12. Where Did You Buy The Shirt You're Wearing Now?
- Malaysia
13. Is Someone On Your Mind Right Now?
- Yea
14. Who Was The Last Person To Text You?
- Siang Phong

9 People To Tag: (Recap)
1) Terrence
2) Sarah
3) Mabel
4) Wendy
5) Clar
6) Michelle
7) Marcus
8) Quanlin
9) FAEY MUM

15. Who Is The Number 2 Having A Relationship With?
- I duno sia
16. Is 3 A Male Or A Female?
- Female
17. What Is Number 1 Studying About?
- FDM
18. When Was The Last Time You Had A Chat With Them?

1) Terrence 2 days ago
2) Sarah 2 days ago
3) Mabel 2 days ago
4) Wendy 2 days ago
5) Clar 2 days ago
6) Michelle few weeks ago
7) Marcus few minutes ago
8) Quanlin 2 days ago
9) FAEY MUM few weeks ago

19.Is Number 4 Single?
- I duno, I think not?
20.Say Something About Number 2.
- HaHa...shes caring, blur & helpful
21. What Do You Think About Number 3 And 6 Being Together?
- Haha.... not possible
22. Describe Number 9.
- Ooo....shes a wicked mum who always ill treat me....lol....
23. What Will You Do If Number 6 And 7 Fights?
- I think I try stopping them?

Quiz 3.
1. What’s your nickname?
- Caoge, Tai Zi
2. How old are you?
- 19
3. When’s your birthday?
- 30 June
4. What’s your special skill?
- Strategist?
5. What’s your horoscope?
- Cancer
6. Who pass this survey to you?
- Anqi
7. She’s your….?
- Coursemate, friend
8. What you wanna talk to him/her?
- Erm, it take sometime to shake off the fats..
9. What you think about him/her?
- A great leader, someone who can handle situations, able to hold on no matter how tough is it
10. When you know him/her?
- Erm, this yr 2008
11. How’s her attitude?
- very stable?
12.Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
- Nope
13. If one day, your lover tell you that he/she loves you too, how will you do?
- I'll will erm....stead with her of course....
14. Are you well-being now?
- Not really
15. Why god give you courage?
- No...they nv gif me any courage
16. Who’s the people that you like?
- My friends
17.Which colour do you like the most?
- Black, White & Grey
18. God give you 4 wishes:
- More Courage
- More Handsome
- More money
- More Freedom
19. Do you like to smile and laugh ?
- Depends

Sick......Missing School Again

2008-12-30T16:23:00.000+08:00

Haiz...I'm Sick Again!!!!! Always during this period of the year I will most probably be sick.....But surprisingly I miss going to school!!! I duno why, perhaps this is my last sem so I might just wanna spent more time in school. Anyway, gonna be sooooo busy when I return to school cos got projects to do and FDM club got to do alot of things.
Well, congrats to the new committee of FDM Club, this Fri you all will know about your positions, gd luck and don't throw my face ar......Sianz....staying at home is a total waste of time, but I cant do anything sia....Lets see if I get thinner this time or fatter...Haha....

Shopping Is So Tiring

2008-12-22T21:21:00.000+08:00

Today, went to update my closet. In the morning went to school 1st to settle club things, but I can't find ESC ppl in the room, so no choice, get Mdm Boey to sign 1st this week anytime then go back and try my luck. Anyway, after that went to TM & CS to shop 1st, then went to Town to shop, and lastly Bugis.....It was damn hot la, & Bugis is filled with living things in such a narrow pathway. But anyway, manage to snag a thin tie & a bermudas there. Quite cheap compare to Town. & I finally got the CD.....I bought it at TM but actually I went to HMV and there sell cheaper!!!! Actually by 4cents only, haha........ My leg now pain like hell....gotta rest well & stay home do project, haiz.....

Finally got their CD

Ronney's 17th Surprise Birthday

2008-12-17T21:25:00.001+08:00

1st & foremost, Happy 17th Birthday Ronney!!! Finally getting closer to 18....Stay cheerful & happy!!
Well, yesterday the 3rd Anniversary Team made a surprise birthday celebration for one of the members which is Ronney!!!! However, Mabel did not came as she was very sick, take good care of urself ya.... Anyway, I think we did surprise him somehow....Haha....We were very confused at 1st on how are we gonna take the cake out as it is quite weird isn't it if I just take the cake out & say Happy Birthday, most probably it should be very drama... Hmm, well, I have been thinking whether anot to buy a CD which I like but it is a JPOP which is my 1st time that like the songs so much..Hmm....Not like me yea? Haha...I often do things with fast decision, but now, haiz....I really do know to buy it anot... Pictures that we took yesterday:

Our Group photo, again one member is missing, Mabel :(

The Birthday cake with Ronney's fingers

Side view of the cake

Top view of the cake

Ronney with the Hong Bao in his hands as Present

Erm, I forgot who he's staring at...most prob is Siang Phong

Ronney Cutting the cake

Cutting the cake again:)

3rd Anniversary Cont'd

2008-12-14T16:30:00.000+08:00

As promised, photos are updated.... sources from all around the blogs of FDMers:

Ok, there's nothing between the 2 of us cos shes our bro, anyway, Tai Zi Fei I never change

The 3 of us tired with Terence still energetic

Oooo...Wads with that stress face of Sarah's

All of the feeling hot & tired during briefing at Bedok Reservoir

Everyone settled down & going to walk to Bedok Reservoir

My best painted face of the day: Si Kai the Clown

Yr 3s waiting for Spooky Trail

Wei Ting & Grala Eating

Again, they are singing

Marcus, Clar & Michelle

Mabel Singing the Korean Song

N804 end pose for the dance

N803 starting to STOMP up

N802 Dancing on the stage

Representing N801: Stephen & Wendy with Jing Xin as the Guitarist

Our Course Manager, Mr Chan Kim Kai on the stage preparing for the cake ceremony

The lecturers, 3rd Anniversary Comms & the performers on the stage

Well, thats all that I managed to grab from the blogs, etc for the time being, more updates till I get the photos from Yi Hang cos I think he got the pictures

2008-12-08T15:49:00.001+08:00

3rd Anniversary Team (Left to Right: Ronney, Sarah, Me, Terence & Mabel), the photo will be great if Siang Phong is in too...

I don't know what happen to the top photo I just can't adjust it below, so no choice I just place it there. I've got some of the photos from the 3rd Anniversary event, so I'm posting them all up!!! Whether its unglam or glam just post e'm up....

Who's that with the long hair down and the other the mask on? Make a guess...

The 6 of us of the Anniversary Team (Front: Mabel & Ronney, Back: Terence, Sarah, Me & Siang Phong) during the stayover at Sarah's House

Another photo of the 6 of us these 2 photos are the only proper photo that we have, the rest are all ..........

5 of us lying all ard the bed at Sarah's House while Mabel snaps the shot

This is the most unglam photo that I have ever took, god, actually is they snap it when I was asleep!!!

Amanda, Jing Xin & Ann Ann walking at Bedok Reservoir during our Dry-run

The 3 of us disussing at Bedok Reservoir, why is Ronney showing that weird face??

All of us discussing about the games at Bedok Reservoir but whose hand is that!!!!

Ann Ann, Kar Hong, Darren, Winnie, Jing Xin & Robin enjoying themselves during the Dry-run

Everyone walking towards the Bedok Reservoir

Winnie, Kar Hong, Darren & Robin squatting down for shades outside Bedok Reservoir

OMG!!! The girls again camwhoring!!! (Ann Ann, Amanda, Anqi, Mabel with Sing phong & Jing Xin as background)

For the time being I only managed to get these photos, more comig up, so stay tune for more juicy photoshoots and ..........

Our 3rd Anniversary Happy Ending

2008-12-06T15:23:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was a very very important & momentum day for me, I think its the same for the rest of the 3rd Anniversary Committee too. Yesterday was the biggest event that I have ever done before and so does my members. Well, I gotta say WELL DONE PEOPLE!! I'm seriously very proud of u all, without u arll spending the time & effort cooperating with one another, the event will never be such a big success.
Generally, I think most of the participant enjoyed the event, thnx alot for celebrating with us!! I have to thank in behalf of the 3rd Anniversary Team (consisting of Ronney, Sarah, Siang Phong, Mabel, Terence & I) all participants of the event, the performers and helpers of the event especially N801, N802, N803 & N804, & also Mr Chan Kim Kai our Course Manager, Mdm Boey our Club Advisor, all the lecturers & Mr Raymond Wong who has helped us sooo much in the event, we really apreciate all your efforts. Once again, Thnx to all of you that the event has successfully ended!!!!

Personally, I would like to thank my group for their efforts and time. Even though sometimes we have arguments or misunderstandings, I think that the 6 of us still cherish the friendship we developed during this period. I'm really very glad to know u all and working with u all. In addition, I would like tell each and everyone of u, what I like & dislike about u....but pls don't be angry k? I jus state some pointers only:

~Ronney~
Basically I felt that u are a true leader no doubt, however, sometimes u get too over-control of the situation and u like to do things ur way. Its not a bad thing, but sometimes listening to others mayearance make the situation better. Also, u look really "strong" i mean ur personality wise not appearance wise, but actually if u notice deeper inside urself, u are afraid also, so try sharing ur fear wif someone whom u can really really share with and like to share with or u will be suffering alone. In addition, u tend to get very tense up sometimes that others may mistook ur behaviour even though u don't meant it.
Thru yesterday, I have to say u did really well even though u sort of forgot ur lines some parts. Generally, I really have to say that u did a very good job as an Emcee and also the leader of the project.

~Sarah~
From the interviewing at the start of the subcomm recruitment, I didn't know that u have soooooo much potential in u. At 1st, u were still very quiet, but after about few meetings u started opening up, and ur talents gradually appeared. U displayed great leadeship skills which I didn't thought that u have it, u just basically stunned me. Well, I can't really find much negative points, but I think one of it is that u are too blur sometimes, but is a gift which not many will have. However, u need to balance up everything u do as sometimes u get very tense up also. So try to get urself cool down 1st then u organize everything step by step.
Thru yesterday, even though u are very nervous as an Emcee, u still manage to deliver the whole event with Ronney. Also, u manage to sort of go out of ur safety zone in the Emcee which I felt that u really did a great job.

~Terence~
Hmm......I felt that u really really need to commit more to the club. Well, for the time being I still feel that u are not giving alot of "thing". Sometimes u need to sacrifice ur time for the project as u are not the only one in the team, the other 5 of us are also sacrificing for the same goal. In addition, u get very protective about urself, when people tell u about ur areas of improvements u need to listen and try ur best to overcome them, others only tell u ur negative point when they care about u, so don't be mad about small stuffs like that. Furthermore, u need to know how to interact with others, sometimes u should go along with the group members when we are joking & playing around. Most of the time, u also tend to stand firm on ur ideas, is not a bad point but when others are giving ideas u should consider them and not just keep siding ur own ideas when it may not be feasible. Moreover, u like people to go with ur way, which I think is the most jialat point u have. U like people to go with ur way, and if they don't, u will be mad, which I feel that u really really have to kick this habit.
Thru yesterday, I felt that u did quite a good job, u helped out in most of the things, u oso handled certain situation quite well.

~Siang Phong~
Haha....Basically the whole project will not be sooo much fun without u.... U have that special ability to brighten up the atmosphere when the rest of us are very stressed. Its no doubt that u sacrifice the most for this project, and u did the most things for the project in my POV. Furthermore, I think that u generally is capable of doing things beyond what I expected from u.... Not only u have ideas that is creative, u are also capable of "carrying heavy loads on urself". However, u need to stand up for ur ideas sometimes as I felt that some of ur ideas were good but when others started pointing out the probs of ur ideas, u just let it go, and forgot about ur own ideas. Also, u need to learn when to have fun and when to do serious work during projects.
Thru yesterday, I felt that u sacrifice the most for the project, and u are really hardworking and no matter how rush or tired u are, u still carried out what is to be done without grumbling, u really did a very very good job yesterday.

~Mabel~
Ah.....U nid to commit more to the project sometimes, cos I felt that there's still somemore things u can do to fasten the pace of the project. Also, u need to be more independent in handling situations. Moreover, u tend to be very blur most of the time or rather u are always blur, its not a good thing nor is it a bad thing, but somethings can't make any mistakes. In addition, u get ur emotions in the project itself, which I feel is very bad. Of course we know u are angry, everyone has that period of time when they are really angry, but i hope that u can change that.
Thru yesterday, I felt that u are able to handle situations even though u still need some guidance, and u manage to finish up the things that are not done and u are capable of doing things right.

Thats all, but pls don't hate me or what k? Cos I want u all to know ur Strong & Weak side so the next project we can work together even better. I will upload the pic for the 3rd Anniversary soon...

Joy Through The Night

2008-11-29T21:22:00.001+08:00

Yesterday after school all of us (the 3rd Anniversary Group) went to Sarah's house to taunt for the event to discuss the things and packaging . Well, have lots of fun definitely, we started at about 11.30, and we finished at about 5+ in the morning. OMG! I didn't slp, or perhaps I did rest my eyes for less than 30 mins.
Then, we of course talk about our own life, each other, play truth or dare, & the questions of the truth of dare were so................. Anyway, I dozed off halfway, and they tried waking me up but to no vail. & Ronney started filming me with Mabel's Camera!!! I got no face to face my frenz sia if they saw the short video. Tsk tsk tsk bad bad people....PLS DON'T SHOW THE VIDEO TO OTHER PEOPLE, MABEL!!!! NOT EVEN TO YOUR CLASS, PLS PLS PLS......
Hahaha.....then in the morning Siang Phong, Ronney, Sarah & Terence played pool at Sarah's house, & Siang Phong & Sarah taught me how to play!!!! Thnx...Its damn hard...... Its a fun day even though tiring...

Time is Getting Faster & Faster

2008-11-21T21:20:00.000+08:00

Hmm, a few weeks has passed since my last sem has started, well, have been working on the FDM project 3rd Anniversary with the Year 1s namely, Ronney, Sarah, Mabel, Terence & Siang Phong. Haiz...sometimes I just wonder how long can you maintain friendship with one another.... Pls don't tell me the answer without even thinking at the 1st place. Most of the people will say forever but how true is that? Ask yourself, can u and your friends really maintain the friendship and keep in touch with one another after u graduated?
Well, I'm very happy working with my year 1 group now. Even though we have intention of giving up at certain point, but is our hardwork, friendship & effort that make us go so far. Hopefully the 6 of us can still keep in touch with one another in the future. Haiz... Nowadays I'm having most of my time with them but not my classmates, cos I'm really very tired and sick of the politics and all the rubbish stuff in my class. Sticking with the Year 1s just make me more peaceful and comfortable cos I can say wadever I want to and they will not do anything that will "negatively affect" me.... But in my class, I have to think before I speak, I must always be alert of people trying to "harm" me...its sooooooo tiring, I really just need a place where I can sit in without the need to constantly be alerted. Living like this is so tiring, u won't know if u aren't or never experience it before.

ManHunt???

2008-11-09T16:24:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to T3 to discuss with my FDM project group about the 3rd year anniversary. Well, we settled most of the things and joked very long, and I told them I cant eat Choco Sundae! Cos I will get very high after I ate the Choco Sundae from Mac then I will start singing and talking rubbish.....lol.....Well, Quan Lin they all should know cos they experience it before...Haha...Anyway, Other than me, Siang Phong was the main joker of the day, he kept talking jokes and we laughed like mad at the airport.
After the discussion went to town with Terence. The journey damn long la, sit until my butt pain...we reach there at about 5.30++ & then we went to Heeren HMV. Browse around pretty long and I discovered one thing in HMV, which is they are quite slow in terms of having the latest CDs cos most of the CDs I saw at HMV was already released in other countries long long time ago... Anyway, both of us met some strange happenings when we got out of Heeren.
First it was me, when we walked out of Heeren, 2 girls, or I shall said 2 quite pretty girls ran towards and asked me to if I want to participate in a contest or what called the "MANHUNT". I was damn shocked la, my 1st time in town someone just suddenly came towards me. Anyway, I did not participate, & if anyone knows what is the contest about can u pls tag me or tel me about it?? Next was Terence turn, just a few steps after I encountered the shock, we saw a booth in front which is the Sony Ericsson Booth, Terence wanted to go look at the phones but sudenly the man standing in front of the booth grabbed his hand & ask him to join their game. I think he got damn stunned la, he quickly ran away.....Thats all, shall stop here....

Difficulties

2008-11-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

Quite long since my last entry, shall start blogging again. Hmm.....Alot of things has happened these weeks, the FDM projects, hearing the individual groups proposals. Finally my group managed to clinch approval. Anyway, sorry for those who asked me for more budget. I'm really sorry, but I have my own difficulties. As a treasurer of the club, I have to try make the most amount of profits from the most minimum spendings possible. Its not that I don't wanna give you all more budget, is just that, all of you need to learn how to save money and generate lots of profit from what you have. Well, its hard I know, but this is the part where most of us sees the potential in you all too. Anyway, I can only apologise to you all, and Good Luck......

Weekends Break

2008-11-02T16:13:00.001+08:00

Yesterday played Majong with Terence, Jessica & Hui Min at my house. It was definitely full of fun and sound, cos all of us were making 5 tais most of the time. After that, my mum told them abt the ghost stories she has. They were scare la, but still want to listen. Haha.... Anyway, the day was filled with fun & anxiety...& ya I was being tagged to do these so I shall do it:

A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B. Tag eight people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. What is your dream ambition?
- Be an Popular Actor, Top Fashion Designer or a Super Model..lol....

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- My ambition, but its hard

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
- Sounds weird for a guy to talk abt this isn't it? Anyway, my dream wed is to be at an open grassland with trees with red leafs and the paths are filled with blacky red roses

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
- Japan & NYC

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
-I'm very introvert.....but after I know the person long enough I'm will be slightly extrovert

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- I suppose to love someone?

7. Do you trust easily?
- Definitely No

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Well, I will be sad for weeks, but I can only wish that the guy will be good to her isn't it?

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
- Family
- Gonna Graduate soon
- Not Enough Money
- No Freedom

10. What does your name mean?
- Jerry. I duno wad it means.

11. Is being tagged fun?
- I tink so. But sometimes i'm lazy to do it.

12. How do you see yourself?
- Shy, loner, most of the time sad

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
- I seriously duno, I think is friends?

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
- Hyper-active, extrovert

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- I think single and rich

16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
- 4

17.What’s better, to give or to receive?
- I think both

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- Hmm...I would choose the one who I really really love, and most importantly it wouldn't happen to me oso...

19. Would you give your all in a relationship?
- Definitely

20. What are you waiting for right now?
- The time to slow down

Tagged by: Clar

Tagged people: Terence, Sarah, Quan Lin, Faey, Xiang Yun, Wendy & Anqi

HSM 3

2008-10-25T17:01:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was damn hectic... I was late for the course briefing thingy, and when I reach, its already finishing.... After that rushed up to the club room to continue the discussion of the FDM Club event..... As usual, we discussed till very late and we finally done something that we are proud of... It shall be a secret till the day we present..Haha...

After the meeting, went to TM to watch HSM 3 with Li Ting, Pei Yu & Terence...We are dman rush cos the meeting ended very late... Anyway, I thought that HSM was going to be boring cos I nv see any of the HSM before....But out of my surprise, it was a great show.. It consists of not only the funny part but also some touching plots too... The songs arer damn nice too..... Basically I just love almost all their songs... I rate the movie 3.6 stars..... Well, I think the 4 of us enjoy ourselves....

Good News or Bad News

2008-10-22T14:03:00.001+08:00

Well, I got a good news or perhaps its a bad news. Ive got the CDs I wanted....Color & Composition...But but but......I just discovered that my this semester actually has lots of projects to do, so I will be damn busy!!! Oh god....since its already fixed, I got no choice but to stick with it, hope that it doesn't affect much on my other modules. Anyway, the 3rd anniversary project is in the final stage, and time is not enough for us, we gotta rush!!!
School has started for 3 days, and thru the days I finally discovered something..... Lots of my classmates aren't as bonded as we seems to be.... & the acting seems to be appearing again...haiz...so tired of watching those acts...I think I better be contained to myself, or I might just be "hurt"....

Start of Sem 3.2

2008-10-20T23:07:00.005+08:00

Hmm...the start just started today, is a good thing and bad thing at the same time cos I can finally see my frenz again, but it also means that its coming towards the end of our poly life...haiz...so saddening... Well, today Terence & me went sooooo early to change/opt for CDs....we waited for about 30 mins for the door to open, & when we finish doing up the forms, the person there told me that I should come back on Thurs cos there a alot more people without CDs, and I have completed my 9CUs CDs. Wth...I waited so long then you tell me to come back another day...anyway, Terence waited for about 45 mins for the lecturers to come... but it paid off cos he got the CDs that we wanted!
Today was also the presentation of the 2 main projects of FDM club, well, the 1st group which is the CCN/Bazaar wasn't really what I expected of them, the 2nd one wasn't too bad, cos I only listened to half of their presentation.

"New Hair Cut" & Majong Sessions

2008-10-18T21:18:00.000+08:00

Today went for a "new hair cut" at another salon at Hougang Green....Well, its better I feel in terms of their service, price & Hair styles. Anyway, tomorrow just need to dye my hair...Haha...
Then, went to Terence's House for Majong Session with him & his 2 classmates from FDM, Jessica & Hui Min, I think is their name la, lol..I forgot...Anyway, it was definitely fun! & most importantly, I WON abt $4!!! Yay!!! Well, the 2 girls lose, Terence & I both win quite a bit, but he won much higher than me...Haha...Tomorrow another session with Terence, Yong Han & Quan Lin...Better not lose any money...Till then....

FDM's AMAZING Race & New Friends

2008-10-15T15:23:00.000+08:00

Finally the FDM's Amazing Race was successfully carried out yesterday. Well, I can say that its tiring but FUN!!! & I'm proud to announce the Winning Team.........DOMINANCE....which I was the tagger, with great Team Members namely, Liza, SiKai, Way Hong & Ann Ann... Haha..ok I'm happy with it....In addition, even though the Race was exhilarating, but it was worthwhile cos I met a couple of new friends....They are from my team: Si Kai, Way Hong & Ann Ann... Liza was in my group too but I knew her so not counted. Not forgeting the others: Sarah, Terence & Winnie... Great to know all of you....The game ended at abt 6.30, then, most of us went to pack our dinner and gather at the top of Vivo to eat...Chatted with Terence, Sarah & Winnie, and thats how I got to know them too...Haha... We quite "click" I suppose cos I seriously enjoy talking with them yea.....
It was so unpredicted that so many of you came for the event, and I hope you all have both benefited aand enjoyed urselves during the game....Great job all of you!!!!

Busy With FDM Club Blog

2008-10-09T14:04:00.001+08:00

Well, I have jsut finish changing the FDM Club blog skin and some stuff in it. Kind of busy these days with the club matters. Haiz... so tired...anyway, yesterday was class gathering, but not all came, & some were not notified, i think, missed out. Quite fun to get together after so long since attachment. We're dicussing about where we will go after poly, most of them are going to the University (Local/Abroad). But when ask me, I'm quite helpless, cos I don't know what I want, where I want to go, & what I want to be in the future. Haiz...this question has been circulating in my head for so many years, but I still cant find the answers. Hopefully during my 2 years in NS, I can find the thing I want to do in the future. Having being go to places where I dont want to go for 19 years has made me so tired, so I would want to first be freed from home....

Back To Past? Maybe No

2008-10-01T17:37:00.000+08:00

Children's Day is here again....Sometimes I really hope that I could go back to the time when I was young... But somethings that I have now I just cant let go cos I treasured them so much... Haiz... there's an old saying: When you gain something, you will lose something too. Hmm....it reflected so true to me. Being young, I do not have so much worries such as money, warmth, love, exams, etc. However, if I did not come to this point, I would have lose Friends that I treasured so much, even though I will have more worries, but eventually, everything has its beginning and its end, I just hope that my future will not be too tough for me to go on. Everyone just seems to work so hard to survive, but I just want to rest a while in my dreams till I find the courage to stand up and walk towards my destiny that awaits me. Friends? How long will I be able to stay with them? 2 yrs? 5 yrs? 10 yrs? I'm really afraid that I would be the one that is left alone by myself in the future. My personality is just to hard for the rest to accomodate with. My mood just swings so fast and every moment or even seconds, I'm feeling different, am I down with some illness or what? Maybe I'm just born to be alone, who knows...Till then, I shall rest in my dreams....

A New Hope

2008-09-26T22:12:00.002+08:00

Went back TP for FDM Meeting again...& found out that there's so much thing for us to take care of, especially CASH!!!! Well, the meeting was very long, from morning to about 7.30PM at night sia...Damn tired when reach home, somemore I'm sick la, cant stand, it really got to rest well.
Have been listening to Simple Plan's Songs recently such as Save You & No Love. I think those 2 songs are their new songs, not very sure cos I'm not a fan of them, but no doubt I like their songs very much. Hmm...Next sat having Sec Sch gathering, hopefully most people turn up. I think I just found my new direction in my life that is............After I graduate from Poly and NS, I want to be a Singer/Actor!!! I don't mind staying in other countries to be a Singer/Actor, is fine with me to in other country alone. If possible, I would want to be a Singer/Actor in Japan, I dunno why, but I just love the things in Japan. Well, it may be just a DREAM of mine, but I'ill try my best ti make it real, hopefully.